Too busy for life.

So with Orion on the way, a new job and just about everyone up my ass about something
i haven't even had time to get a decent nights sleep in the last month.
I'm completely worn out and was in the hospital on April 4th.
Luckily i'm alright but they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.

Since then I've had my birthday which was on April 6th. [Don't fuss guys i didn't announce
it this year] I'm 19 now and life just does not seem easy anymore.

Today was fucking miserable, i woke up after having issues sleeping all night, my new best
friend is Melatonin as its the only way i can sleep through the pain of my over assertive
GERD aka Acid Reflux. Then having to get up at 5:30 in the morning to be at work by 6:30 to
turn around and have to drive my boss's mom to work before 7. [Made it back to the office
before 6:50 lol] But still, plus its FUCKING COLD outside and i didn't get a nice hot shower
to wake me up and relax me for the day.

So i'm rather miserable right now, i feel like shit and hardly was able to stomach a bowl of
cereal, oh did i mention that after being in the hospital I've hardly had an appetite? Yeah,
so Orion hasn't been getting everything he needs and i have head aches several times a
day only eased by drinking sugary drinks, which i'm not suppose to drink in the first place...

Eating right, exercising and gaining weight??? What the hell... i'm at 6 months now and I've
gained 22 lbs, that's fairly normal, but i'm suppose to gain 1-2 lbs a week from now on...
Its fucking exhausting having to carry around ALL this extra weight with more to gain?!
Plus eating right hasn't been easy when your on a limited food budget and your boss likes
to get you take out all the time and you not suppose to eat subway unless its been heated
because the deli meat can make you sick, who fucking knew.
Then exercising is like yeah right. I don't even want to fucking MOVE let alone go for a brisk
walk or jog daily with the roommates dog. Trust me i walked that dog daily for a month then
when i started to work this job I said FUCK THAT. Plus i'm not home around 2pm anymore,
the time I prefer to go on walks, because its the warmest part of the day and its just before
kids get out of school, and just before it gets super windy here in Colorado.

Any who i just need to fucking rant... so i'm going to continue lol... [Waiting for my boss to get
up an stop snoring in his room lol] SPEAKING of my boss, the guy wont STOP trying to get in
my pants... hes a ex Marine and REALLY likes me. Okay i get that i'm hot and 19 but seriously
dude? Your old enough to be my dad, whose only 4 years older than him. And YOUR MY BOSS!
O.o And he asked if me and him were going out like WHAT THE FUCK DUDE?! Were did that
come from?! I mean YES you are VERY helpful and picked me up from the hospital and were
the only person who was responding to me when i was in a shit ton of pain but i was only letting
you know i was in pain cus your my boss and it meant i might not make it to work... But NOPE
he saw that as a lot more... .-. But meh... kinda over it, hes nice.. but FUCKING TALL! I'm 5'5"
and this guy is like 6'6" O.o So yeah i'm a fucking shrimp next to him...

ANY WHO i'm fucking tired *lays head on desk and burps* ug....

Okay i'm done ranting now.

~Peanutbutter & Jelli